Can’t believe I lost as much weight as I have! I bought pants 2 sizes smaller than I used to wear! And now that I’m going to start training for this 5k I will be losing some more weight. I just want to be healthy and happy.
Some people just confirm the negative thoughts that I have in my head about myself.
Whoever is around me today is in for a treat. Lack of sleep plus my dad starting arguments before 7:30am. Yup it’s going to be a fun day.
Woke up this morning to my 81 year old Grandaddy weeping in pain and praying that The Lord would take him right then. He was claiming the Lords faithfulness at a time he presumed was the end of his life. Oh how I wish that I had faith like that.
When he talks about how he doesn’t care about living anymore because he’s in so much pain and when he talks about how he feels like he’s going away from here, it scares me but also encourages me. It scares me because I don’t want to watch him die but it encourages me because I know where he’s going and it makes me wanna have greater faith.
Pray for him, pray for us. This is really hard and I feel like my heart literally hurts from the chaos from the last few days but I know my faith is strengthening. I know God is faithful.
You never know your own mental strength and calmness until your put in a situation where it’s tested. My Grandadddy wasn’t doing to well today. He stood up and his legs became weak. I rushed over and talked to him where he told me that he believed that he was having a stroke. I called 911 and as we were waiting for help to arrive my Grandaddy began to call on the name of Jesus. It brought me to tears. He told me that he just wanted to be with Jesus and out of the pain he was in. I have never been in a life or death situation like that and I pray that I never am again. He’s stabilized and we’re all here trying to lighten the mood. I’m so thankful for life.
The scariest moment of my life happened today.
Lets see what Babblr is all about.
I’m sorry! I’m a fan of your social media. Hints to why I follow you on Tumblr and Twitter and I’m friends with you on Facebook but I cannot stalk you in real life. I mean I know you’re accustomed to my constant presence but I’m pretty sure stalking is illegal.
I tend to shut people out when I’m feeling the way I’m feeling right now but today for the first time I purposefully let someone in.
I haven’t even fallen asleep yet but I already don’t want to wake up in the morning. I need to go to this new members class though because it only happens once a month.
The more everyone keeps telling me to stop being depressed, the more depressed I feel.
Just bawled my eyes out at the Luminaria service at Relay for Life. It was so moving. It made me think about how much I missed my Uncle and made me extremely grateful that my Dad’s name was not on one of those bags because he was sitting right there with me.
This transition has been extremely hard. I can’t even put into words how difficult it has been for me to go from being at college surrounded by people to sitting at home constantly applying for jobs. The enemy has hit me hard with lies that I so easily clung to and believed. I cry a lot. I feel depressed. I feel alone. But through this all my faith has been stretched. I have learned what it means to desperately cling to The Lord. I’m learning to trust in, to wait for, to love, and to abide in my Savior.
but He’s like:
then everything turns out a gazillion times better than I could’ve imagined…I’m like:
Every day without a call back from a job is another day that I feel like a failure. I need to cling to the Truth of Christ and wait for what He has in store but I feel like a failure. I’m a recent college grad that’s sitting on my parent’s couch watching Law & Order: SVU by myself. I’m living the life! -_-
I miss being around people, more specifically, my friends. Being alone most of the day with my thoughts is a pretty dangerous combination. I pray that I get a job soon and my debit card comes in the mail so that I have some money! I can’t live like this much longer.
I’m going to my first community group at my new church. I’m a bit nervous. I’m extremely shy and awkward when I don’t know anyone. I hope that I can get that under control!